I feel like a yoyo

I feel like a yoyo. One day I'm great, the next I'm back on the couch watching bad movies, bad TV, and cursing my back. I'm doing all the right things (ok, so doing the vacuuming this morning was probably not the right thing to do) and I'm getting nowhere!

I saw physio yesterday and he was pleased (if not a little surprised) by my progress since our last session on Wed...where I was in tears...and cursing him every time he touched me. Apparently I'm doing well in my recovery. However, he didn't think I was up to returning to work. I have no leave left. We negotiated (one advantage of being the parent to a toddler is you become very skilled at negotiating!). He agreed to send me to work on light duties restricting me to admissions. Now I have to get my boss to actually follow that... The other thing he said was I HAD to get in the pool. And no more gym or rehab until further notice. This is going to KILL me!

So, yesterday afternoon my little family of three treked to the pool. DH and DD played and splashed whilst I walked up and down the pool. I got to have some play time with them too which was nice... even if I couldn't play the normal games, or catch DD as she jumped in the pool, or lift her back out again. When we finally crawled out the pool, looking like a family of shriveled up prunes, I could feel a difference in my back. It felt loser. It didn't hurt so much to walk. But my limp was still there. It wasn't as noticeable as when we had arrived, but it was there. Overall, I was happy with the pool session.

Last night we went out for dinner. Nothing fancy, just the local Mexican place. I ordered one of their giant margarita's... for medicinal purposes ;) I must be getting old, I wasn't able to finish it! It wasn't the intoxication levels that stopped me from finishing it but the fact that I was so full! Had I drunk one more sip I would have revisited my evening meal! When we left the venue, I noticed I had no pain at all in my leg or back. I felt like I was walking like a normal person as well (aaaaahhhhh the trickery of intoxication!)... until we reached the car park. And then my limp was back ever so slightly. Sulking, I got in the car. When we got home, I put the TENS on straight away.

This morning I woke feeling good. I even felt strong enough to manage two small loads of washing and vacuuming my small house. It didn't last long. By lunch time, my back was spasming once more. I was devastated! I feel like a yoyo! I made DD lunch then parked myself on the couch with the TENS. Annoyed and devestated, I tried not to cry. I just want this all to stop!